I’ve done some serious growing up in the past couple of years. As I surf through my late twenties and approach the big 3-0, I’ve noticed a some stuff:
- I now feel semi-inappropriate and weird when I shop at FOREVER 21
- I’ve started to grow some serious gray hairs at lightning speed overnight (thanks Mom).
- Most Disney movies have some serious adult humor and innuendo going on (no wonder Ariel was desperate for a pair of legs…)
- I think about the “master plan” ALL THE TIME (A.K.A. saving for retirement). Growing old and broke scares the bejeezus out of me.
- I can no longer eat the large bag of Flamin’ Hot Cheetos without making myself sick.
- Hangovers are REAL (note to self: three drink limit).
With all this said, I must also confess that with time, it can be a little harder to bring out the inner kid in me. I question my outfit choices asking myself if I’m too old to be wearing “My Little Pony” Converse, or cartoon tanks or if it is normal to get so excited about the new Flash Tattoos trend. I feel kinda’ silly when a new Pixar movie comes out and I’m the first one in line to watch it…AND I HAVE NO KIDS. Then, I snap out of my little guilt-induced soliloquy and I remind myself that IT’S OKAY TO FEEL YOUNG. As a young woman in my twenties, I know a lot of you can relate to this. We grew up in the midst of the fight against terrorism and graduated college to one of the worst recessions in history. Most of us come from divorced homes and were forced to mature at an early age. We were listening to adult conversations far beyond our maturity comprehension level and worried about things we had no power to change.
That kind of pressure and sense of responsibility is actually a good thing. I feel like my head is screwed onto my shoulders and my feet are planted firmly on the ground. I feel so old beyond my years to the point where allowing myself to feel and BE young actually takes some convincing at times. It’s a delicate balance, a beautifully dangerous one. Stray too far away from your inner kid and you might never find your way back to that sacred, special place. That place inside you is worth fighting for, it is worth saving. It is worth tapping into it every single day, one way or another: through music, television, self-expression, or with your kids. You know why? Because that place is where all dreams are born. That is THE original place where every single one of your dreams originated. Nothing was impossible. You want to go to the moon? Build a cardboard box spaceship and wear your mom’s shower cap and lift off! Nothing was silly or unattainable. Remember that feeling that you could be ANYTHING you wanted to be? That when you finished the “When I grow up” sentence, you actually believed it? You can still feel that way. Yup, I’m serious. Once you push aside all the burdens and pressures of daily life and you allow that inner kid to resurface, that feeling that your dreams are attainable, no matter how big they are, is still there. And THAT is what feeds courage. THAT is what sparks action. THAT is what turns a dream, an idea, into a plan and springs you into action.
With that said, I chose to wear my Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle tank today and funk up my outfit for a family lunch. You know why? Because I can. Because it makes the inner kid in me happy and because it is OKAY to match the way you feel inside, with the outside.
What I wore:
Tank: Forever 21 (old)
Shorts: STS Blue
Combat Boots: Nordstrom BP
Lipstick: “Heroine” from MAC
Lip Gloss: “Talk Sexy” from MAC
Lip Liner: “Violet” from Smashbox
Earrings: Nordstrom Rack